She wanted to be enough

She had a dream. A dream to become as intelligent as her mom and sister. To become as beautiful as her friends, as strong as her dad, as popular as her classmates. But she never could.

Her mom always wanted for her to study better and be smarter even though she had all A+. To compete in everything, so she could get into a better college and have the best life.

Her friends told her to pick a better style, even though she had already changed it a hundred times, but never could picked the right one, to eat less so she could be thinner. To wear more make up to hide all that bruises under her eyes, to hide her acne.

Her dad told her to work out more, to try harder in her sport, even though she trained 6 days a week for many hours. To compete more in sports, to give everything to sport

Her friends told her to go on walks with them more, to walk around the school more, to talk to them online on calls.

But she never could be enough. She couldn’t study as much as everyone wanted her to, cause she didn’t like school, she didn’t understand most of the subjects, but she really tried for her mum and sister to not disappoint them. She never could change her style and become as beautiful as her friends and she understood that, but she worked on it, had tons of make up, didn’t eat at all, just for her friends to except her. She never could train enough, cause she had problems with her health but she continued to do that for her father. She never could be with her classmates cause she did not fell like she belonged with them, and that they can be friends, but she tries for them, really hard.

So now you know her story, and why she never could be enough for anyone.

She had a hard life. Her mother said that she could try harder if she wanted to and that she was giving everything just for her to feel comfortable. Her mother told her in every fight “I am disappointed in you”. Her sister tried to help but she never could understand what it’s like not to be born smart.

Her friends always tried to give her their clothes, to recommend a make up brand, a different types of food with less calories. But they never understood what it feels like not to be born beautiful.

Her father always brought her to all of the trainings, payed for them. But every competition she did not win he would say “I am disappointed in you”. But he never understood what it’s like not to be born strong and sporty.

Her classmates never took the initiative to call her anywhere. If she ever wanted to become popular she had to do it herself, to run after them, to try and invite them on her birthday, but it never worked, and every day one of her friends would say “I’m disappointed in you” that she never could join their group.

But the most important people in her life were 3 people. She could never tell their secrets, what they’re talking about, anything she could do that. They always had problems, she tried listening but never could help them. And she disappointed them because she could never help them.

Every night she thought to herself “I disappoint everyone". If anyone could help her is to just let her live as a child.
 

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